Freak out.

I am completely freaking out.

J is supposed to be home on leave THIS AFTERNOON!

I am so excited to see him, but I have been trying to plan some major surprises, so actually, I have a lot of anxiety. I don't know if I can pull everything off, and I'll be so upset with myself if I can't. I can't even express how much I'm freaking out.

Add to that the fact that I've gained a few pounds since I last saw him and my skin has gone crazy, and I'm a royal mess. (I do blame some of this on skipping my period and just going onto the next month's pack-don't judge.)

So anyway, I'm scattered, all over the place, so nervous I kinda wish I could just throw up.

Wish me luck (and sanity!)